Feeling Sad

 Right now I am feeling quite down.  It's not of great concern,  as you may see,  but something I need to acknowledge in writing. One,  from a parent's perspective and the other says something about the benefits off regular exercise,  and fitness.  

Some weeks ago my soon to be 21 year old daughter got into a relationship with a fellow based on western NSW. I saw her mood elevate as she spoke on the phone and had a few trips out to spend the weekend.  But,  I smelt a rat right from the start.  When she came from her first visit,  she described how he was committed to his job there for years to come.  Later, various opportunities for him to visit her at home or horse events within an hour of his home,  feel through.  Now alarmingly,  there were excuses; Covid, my bitch had a litter last night. I could see it happening,  Mia was doing all the leg work,  this guy was sitting back enjoying the rewards of a no responsibilities relationship.  

But however keen Mia gets aft times,  agree has a knack for figuring stiff out.  Tonight shee mentioned having a birthday locally which led to a brief confirmation that the western NSW option wad no longer on the cards.  I remember the challenges of dating and accept that parents cannot protect their children from sadness over failed relationships,  but I really feel for her.  It wad a fact that life here had been stressful and or mundane and that she probably put her eggs in that one basket to find happiness.  

Then,  the other factor lending to my sadness is muggy poor health.  I've had a miserable cold with fevers,  chest congestion and aches for four days. Then the impact of total bed rest had produced back pain.  So not only am i feeling absolutely terrible,  I'm drawing on an already low bank account.  

I feel that tomorrow will see an improvement in the work box and help the bank balance,  but my low mood on behalf off my daughter may last a bit longer.  

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